I SAW HER!!!
I could not have believed my eyes when I first saw her. From that moment on... my night became a night full of uncertainty and blank. A day that started with a fun and enjoyable chat and shopping with my sister at my favorite shopping location in town, ended in what is not the most intriging and yet scary experience in recent years.
Today, my sister and I decided to go and stroll through downtown's Bloor street to spend the time to chat while going to a shopping locaiton that we both like but haven't been to together for uite a while. Overall, I'd say the day was very enjoyable.
After the purchase of a humidifier, we decided to look at the end of an underground path to see what shops are at the end. Once there, I suggested that we go upstairs through the adjecent building to go back up to the street level. Then we can continue our shopping. Out of no prior planning or intentions, had I chosen to go up that escalator and exit to the streets from the door that's closest to where she works.
The choice of the exit was never important because after months of not seeing her, and the occasionall walk-by of her store and not see her, I had already assumed she had quitted. When we walked by the store, as usual, I do a quick scan of the store withought stopping. To my sudden shock... I saw her at the table closest to the window serving a customer. At that moment, like the last day I saw her, i was caught surprised and for a moment didn't know what to do except to hide. WHy hide? Because I had never assumed I'd see her, so was never prepared, and to simply put... my hair was a mess. But what was even more suprising to me was that at that moment, I felt that I had lost 50% of the strength in me. I don't know what to think, I can barely stand straight... not to mention walk. My sister asked me if I wanted to go in, that question served more like an alarm bell, telling me that I should do something and not stand by the store too long... or I'd attract attention... her attention. So I said we should leave the store's premise quickly.
Walking by again, I could not stop myself from looking at her again. Then we crossed the street and went into our next store. My lovely sister continued to pursuade me to stop thinking about her, but I couldn't. What's more, my strength continued to drop. At one point in the store, I found it hard to walk from one end of the store to another. This sounds so extreme even for me! But it was all true. Despite all this, I had an urge to return to there. Is this love? What is this feeling?
From that time on, for the rest of the night, I did not feel like talking or thinking about anything. My mind was either blank, or continued repeating the message - "I saw her! What now?" I kept asking myself if my plans would change. (Stated in the previous posting.)
My friend asked me a very good question... if this is the result of me catching a glimse of her... what would happen if I was in the position to talk to her? My answer... I don't know for sure, but I think I'd try to talk to her.
I really do miss the old times with her. =(
Today, my sister and I decided to go and stroll through downtown's Bloor street to spend the time to chat while going to a shopping locaiton that we both like but haven't been to together for uite a while. Overall, I'd say the day was very enjoyable.
After the purchase of a humidifier, we decided to look at the end of an underground path to see what shops are at the end. Once there, I suggested that we go upstairs through the adjecent building to go back up to the street level. Then we can continue our shopping. Out of no prior planning or intentions, had I chosen to go up that escalator and exit to the streets from the door that's closest to where she works.
The choice of the exit was never important because after months of not seeing her, and the occasionall walk-by of her store and not see her, I had already assumed she had quitted. When we walked by the store, as usual, I do a quick scan of the store withought stopping. To my sudden shock... I saw her at the table closest to the window serving a customer. At that moment, like the last day I saw her, i was caught surprised and for a moment didn't know what to do except to hide. WHy hide? Because I had never assumed I'd see her, so was never prepared, and to simply put... my hair was a mess. But what was even more suprising to me was that at that moment, I felt that I had lost 50% of the strength in me. I don't know what to think, I can barely stand straight... not to mention walk. My sister asked me if I wanted to go in, that question served more like an alarm bell, telling me that I should do something and not stand by the store too long... or I'd attract attention... her attention. So I said we should leave the store's premise quickly.
Walking by again, I could not stop myself from looking at her again. Then we crossed the street and went into our next store. My lovely sister continued to pursuade me to stop thinking about her, but I couldn't. What's more, my strength continued to drop. At one point in the store, I found it hard to walk from one end of the store to another. This sounds so extreme even for me! But it was all true. Despite all this, I had an urge to return to there. Is this love? What is this feeling?
From that time on, for the rest of the night, I did not feel like talking or thinking about anything. My mind was either blank, or continued repeating the message - "I saw her! What now?" I kept asking myself if my plans would change. (Stated in the previous posting.)
My friend asked me a very good question... if this is the result of me catching a glimse of her... what would happen if I was in the position to talk to her? My answer... I don't know for sure, but I think I'd try to talk to her.
I really do miss the old times with her. =(
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