An Unforgettable December 2005
So... it has been a month (again) since my last blog entry. For those that are concerned with accuracies... ok.. I'm 5 days "late". =P
Anyways... I think the past month has been by far the most interesting month I have had in years! Not to mention, it was the happiest too. It had been pretty much filled with everything positive... I guess God had really given me a great birthday present... one that lasted a month.
I was very happy to see my best friend during his vacation back in Toronto. Feel so honoured to have him come out to celebrate my birthday with me. And he had provided me and my friends a lot of good laughs... although the jokes were on me! =P Funny thing is, he hasn't changed a lot. Could almost say he's 十年如一日! But talking to him, I've found that he's starting "grow up". It's he is starting to see and experience a lot of what the world "is", in terms of dealing with people. But despite all that he experiences, God has kept his life very simple and very leisurely. This is a luxury that not many of us can have. For this, I'm happy for him.
Last month, has proved to be one of the most "prosperous" month for my company, and perhaps the busiest, just the way I like it. =) I like it not only because of the revenue involved, but also because of the hope it provides. It also gives me a sense of purpose again. I no longer felt like an outsider to friends, as being the least busy person. Amazingly, I even got a call from my client when I was up in Montreal having my vacation!
Some of us, my friends and I, have thought the dream I had long awaited would come. The day when I find myself a girlfriend. Well... unfortunately, it's January now, and last I checked, I'm still single. Is this bad? Nope. Unlike in previous years, where I often joked about wanting a girlfriend as a birthday present, this year, I totally ignored the idea. My focus was more on my company, hoping that it will be more sucessful and continue to grow. But during December, I find it very interesting, because I had suddenly grown very close with a friend that I pretty much just met few months ago at church. It all started with a suposively 2 minute phone call ending up to be a 2 hour phone call. This was the first time we really talked too. As days and weeks had gone by, we talked quite a lot on the phone. Until on New Years Eve, we went out. It was a "date" I guess I can never forget. It was creative (cause planned by me of course! =P), but it was also pretty "sweet" as many of my friends had described it. In brief though, it consisted of exchange of gifts (Chocolates for a Stuffed Snowman from me), a lunch at a Loblaws by the lake, a snowy outdoor skating lesson, a stroll in a 18th century European streets (Distillery District), a coffee break before each leaving for dinner with other friends. *sigh* It was great... but then as January came by, all things seemed to have suddenly changed. She had suddenly became very busy and thus unavailable. It almost feels as if she's avoiding me. Well until I can really find out more, planning for the worst is all I can do. It's ironic though... after fighting with myself for a month about whether or not ot pursue this... when I do, it blocks me away. Life can be so illogical and ironic sometimes.
This December was also my first time going on a vacation with friends. We went to Mont Tremblant and Montreal for 5 days. It was not one of the best trips in my life. But will I do it again? Yes I would. The trip was filled with frustrations on my part. I could not understand why they don't find that leaving 4 girls that don't know how to ski on a mountain top was "ok". I was "forced" to follow the 4 of them slowly down the hill until they reached a point where they couldn't bear to continue skiing down and wanted to wait for rescue. By that time, it had already started getting dark and cold too. While the others were happily saying how many times they had gone up the mountain, I felt they never once thought of how those 4 may have felt being stranded up on the mountain in cold weater and darkening skies. Not to mention hearing and seeing people cry for help as they had tried to ski down. I find those people to be pretty self-fish. I know as skiiers or as anyone who is on vacation, they'd want to have more fun. But I think taking responsibility for your action is also very important. They "dragged" the 4 skiiers up to the mountain top and then expected them to be able to come down by themselves. What kind of friends are they?! Well I concluded that they are a bunch that don't think of consequences. Had there been an accident or even complaints from any of the 4 skiiers, the others would only say they're sorry. Well what's the use of that by then?! To my surprise (and frustration), no one came to say thanks. Not that I was doing it for that purpose, but I guess sometimes people really do notice it when it's missing. Our "leader"'s short sightedness is seen when we went shopping on Boxing Day. They hurried out of the hotel and walked one block down the street before realizing she doesn't know the direction to the place she wants to go. I don't expect to go on a trip that is fully planned to the second. However, I would expect that if there's a place you want to go, you should at least know how to get there before you leave! The same thing happened that night when we went to eat dinner. No one bothered to bring the address with them. And no one bothered going out in the cold to search for the restaurant except me. So I asked someone on the street while 10 of them huddled at a doorway and 1 tried to go back to the car to find the address. Personally, my joy came on the last day when I get to go shopping ALONE! (LOL!) No one to slow me down... no one to care about... it actually felt pretty good. So with all these frustrations, why would I still do it? Cause there are also fun and happy times too within this trip... moments that just can't be find until we're away from home together on a trip. So the best I could hope for next time is... either they plan better, or change the leader! =P
Finally... one last interesting thing to note. This is another example of the irony in life. It had been months since I had seen the girl I liked a lot way back then. (Can refer to the February blog entry - I SAW HER!!!) Well, since that day, I really never got to saw her. I went by the store she worked in a couple of times during the year, but never saw her. I had believed her to have quitted her job. Well, life's irony showed up in December. And it had to choose my birthday to do it too! The way it happened was totally the same as back in February. I had inadvertently went through the underground beside her work with my other sis this time, and came out the doors near the glasses store. And walked by and saw her. HOWEVER, this time, other than a little shock (or more like surprise), I didn't felt much anymore. There was still a little feeling of longing... of wanting to go see her. But after what had happened, it's kind of hard to know what to say. So have I finally let go...? - I think so.
Anyways... I think the past month has been by far the most interesting month I have had in years! Not to mention, it was the happiest too. It had been pretty much filled with everything positive... I guess God had really given me a great birthday present... one that lasted a month.
I was very happy to see my best friend during his vacation back in Toronto. Feel so honoured to have him come out to celebrate my birthday with me. And he had provided me and my friends a lot of good laughs... although the jokes were on me! =P Funny thing is, he hasn't changed a lot. Could almost say he's 十年如一日! But talking to him, I've found that he's starting "grow up". It's he is starting to see and experience a lot of what the world "is", in terms of dealing with people. But despite all that he experiences, God has kept his life very simple and very leisurely. This is a luxury that not many of us can have. For this, I'm happy for him.
Last month, has proved to be one of the most "prosperous" month for my company, and perhaps the busiest, just the way I like it. =) I like it not only because of the revenue involved, but also because of the hope it provides. It also gives me a sense of purpose again. I no longer felt like an outsider to friends, as being the least busy person. Amazingly, I even got a call from my client when I was up in Montreal having my vacation!
Some of us, my friends and I, have thought the dream I had long awaited would come. The day when I find myself a girlfriend. Well... unfortunately, it's January now, and last I checked, I'm still single. Is this bad? Nope. Unlike in previous years, where I often joked about wanting a girlfriend as a birthday present, this year, I totally ignored the idea. My focus was more on my company, hoping that it will be more sucessful and continue to grow. But during December, I find it very interesting, because I had suddenly grown very close with a friend that I pretty much just met few months ago at church. It all started with a suposively 2 minute phone call ending up to be a 2 hour phone call. This was the first time we really talked too. As days and weeks had gone by, we talked quite a lot on the phone. Until on New Years Eve, we went out. It was a "date" I guess I can never forget. It was creative (cause planned by me of course! =P), but it was also pretty "sweet" as many of my friends had described it. In brief though, it consisted of exchange of gifts (Chocolates for a Stuffed Snowman from me), a lunch at a Loblaws by the lake, a snowy outdoor skating lesson, a stroll in a 18th century European streets (Distillery District), a coffee break before each leaving for dinner with other friends. *sigh* It was great... but then as January came by, all things seemed to have suddenly changed. She had suddenly became very busy and thus unavailable. It almost feels as if she's avoiding me. Well until I can really find out more, planning for the worst is all I can do. It's ironic though... after fighting with myself for a month about whether or not ot pursue this... when I do, it blocks me away. Life can be so illogical and ironic sometimes.
This December was also my first time going on a vacation with friends. We went to Mont Tremblant and Montreal for 5 days. It was not one of the best trips in my life. But will I do it again? Yes I would. The trip was filled with frustrations on my part. I could not understand why they don't find that leaving 4 girls that don't know how to ski on a mountain top was "ok". I was "forced" to follow the 4 of them slowly down the hill until they reached a point where they couldn't bear to continue skiing down and wanted to wait for rescue. By that time, it had already started getting dark and cold too. While the others were happily saying how many times they had gone up the mountain, I felt they never once thought of how those 4 may have felt being stranded up on the mountain in cold weater and darkening skies. Not to mention hearing and seeing people cry for help as they had tried to ski down. I find those people to be pretty self-fish. I know as skiiers or as anyone who is on vacation, they'd want to have more fun. But I think taking responsibility for your action is also very important. They "dragged" the 4 skiiers up to the mountain top and then expected them to be able to come down by themselves. What kind of friends are they?! Well I concluded that they are a bunch that don't think of consequences. Had there been an accident or even complaints from any of the 4 skiiers, the others would only say they're sorry. Well what's the use of that by then?! To my surprise (and frustration), no one came to say thanks. Not that I was doing it for that purpose, but I guess sometimes people really do notice it when it's missing. Our "leader"'s short sightedness is seen when we went shopping on Boxing Day. They hurried out of the hotel and walked one block down the street before realizing she doesn't know the direction to the place she wants to go. I don't expect to go on a trip that is fully planned to the second. However, I would expect that if there's a place you want to go, you should at least know how to get there before you leave! The same thing happened that night when we went to eat dinner. No one bothered to bring the address with them. And no one bothered going out in the cold to search for the restaurant except me. So I asked someone on the street while 10 of them huddled at a doorway and 1 tried to go back to the car to find the address. Personally, my joy came on the last day when I get to go shopping ALONE! (LOL!) No one to slow me down... no one to care about... it actually felt pretty good. So with all these frustrations, why would I still do it? Cause there are also fun and happy times too within this trip... moments that just can't be find until we're away from home together on a trip. So the best I could hope for next time is... either they plan better, or change the leader! =P
Finally... one last interesting thing to note. This is another example of the irony in life. It had been months since I had seen the girl I liked a lot way back then. (Can refer to the February blog entry - I SAW HER!!!) Well, since that day, I really never got to saw her. I went by the store she worked in a couple of times during the year, but never saw her. I had believed her to have quitted her job. Well, life's irony showed up in December. And it had to choose my birthday to do it too! The way it happened was totally the same as back in February. I had inadvertently went through the underground beside her work with my other sis this time, and came out the doors near the glasses store. And walked by and saw her. HOWEVER, this time, other than a little shock (or more like surprise), I didn't felt much anymore. There was still a little feeling of longing... of wanting to go see her. But after what had happened, it's kind of hard to know what to say. So have I finally let go...? - I think so.
posted by Admiral at
1:42 AM
1 Comments:
Same here, Admiral, I was really happy to meet you when I came back for Christmas. Best friend never gets enough time to talk and socialize. I guess, that's will be my excuse next time to come back and visit you.
You, too, have "matured" a lot, perhaps, from your dealings with clients. However, please keep in mind what the other friend and I said to you on that night.
Keep trying, one day, you WILL succeed.
With prayers from a distance.
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Benedict, at 6:25 AM
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